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My hubby is at neurologist now for his check up to see if he has any permanent damage or not from his strokes.

Thank you

Thank you it is very hard. We take it moment by moment

I totally understand how you feel. My son and I used to do everything together now we barely talk. He says you don't understand you haven't been through what I am going through things like that. I saw I know but I am your mom and I love you and I don't want you hurting and I am always here. He would rather talk to his friends than me. I feel left out.

I just want to say hello everyone I get on every now again. I try to get on more often but with three special needs kids, my hubby still getting over his three mini strokes and work, animals everything else it is hard to find time. Glad to all of you. If you need to talk I will listen. I love this forum and the people thank you guys for the support.

Everything just keeps coming at me. Our car had to be fixed $1600. Then I stepped out of my comfort zone went out for a job at work boss said go for it didn't even interview me gave it to someone else. Then my husband got sick he had 3 mini strokes. I again went out for a job at work one I have always wanted my boss said you had an excellent interview will let you know in a few days. I didn't get he gave it to a person from another school. I just don't know how much more I can take. I keep giving and giving and feels like my body is empty. It feels like my boss does not appreciate me. I have helped at the school this summer cleaning, painting 13 rooms 7 of the rooms by myself and he has not one time thanked me. I volunteered for this. He has thanked the other workers but not me. I have washed windows, walls, you name I have probably done. I usually don't care about that stuff but it hurts when he has not even acted like he has cared. I have given up all my time with my family for the school to make it look nice for the kids and staff and not once a thank you. Sorry I just needed to rant.

Elliott is doing better he has started testosterone and his seeing his therapist. He is on medicine to stop his periods. We are doing better. My mom is finally coming around and accepting him.

Our principal told the other ladies that left thank you for a wonderful job but never said anything to me . I am the one who stayed through it all. Maybe I am being petty I don't know.

I love my job very much. I love working with the children and all the people. It is I believe that they walk all over me and don't appreciate what I do. I have given up almost my whole summer to make sure that our school is ready to come back to nice and beautiful. I am the only one who stayed. Our principal thanked our maintenance men which he should because they do an amazing job but I am right there beside them and he didn't even say thank you in person to me. I don't even care about thank yous usually but when no one says it at all it hurts.

Our son Elliott finally got to start his testosterone shot. I got to give it to him. He takes it once a month. We are making progress with his coming out. My mom is becoming more accepting. I am so proud of him. Love him so much.

I have gotten out of my comfort zone twice now to apply for a different position at the place I work which is a school and both. The first time I didn't even get an interview and this time he said I had a wonderful interview but he chose someone else. I give up I am done I can not handle stepping out of my comfort zone and being rejected. I have been there 7 years. I always do what I am told. Never miss a day. I am the only 1 who stayed and painted this summer for the teachers to have their rooms done. I have cleaned and not missed a day. I was always told I would not amount to anything and I am starting to believe it. I keep getting passed over for the next person and I am over it. I will go do my job like everyone else and get paid go home. I am the one who leaves my lunch early to help clean tables so the kids can eat while the other IAs are standing and talking. Sorry I just hate that I get walked all over. Thanks for listening.

It is horrible to lose a pet we lost 2 this year. I am just getting to the point where I don't want to get out of bed or go to work. I love my job but I just don't feel like doing anything anymore. I don't know what it is. I don't know if it is if it is like I don't feel like I don't matter. There is just so much stuff going on and I am wore out mentally and just so hard to keep going. I do though for my family. I would do anything for them.

Thank you everyone I hope all of you have a wonderful year this year

We have had so much happen this last year and I was hoping this year would be better but so far no. I am just so tired. I have 3 special needs children and things just keep coming at us. Oh well 1 day at a time

Thank you all for your support