Lilly Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 Do any of you feel like the Devil is attacking you and your family? Five weeks ago my MIL who had been lving with us only 6 months developed a blockage in her intestines. We took her to the ER. She stayed a few days and was transferred to a nursing home for rehabilatation. The next week my six year old granddaughter that we adopted became sick. We took her to the ER and she had a blood sugar of 856. The Dr said she was very sick and they had to fly her to a children's hospital four hours away. She has Type One Diabetes. The past month has been one of the hardest times of my life having to stick that baby with needles and check her blood. She has to have 4 to 5 shots a day, and several blood sugar checks. We have to count her carbs at every meal. She has been on homebound from school because her school does not have a nurse. I had neck surgery December 29th and have been fighting her to get the insulin in with a neckbrace on praying it did not mess my neck up. The next week my 25 year old DD developed acute appendicitis. Within 6 hours it almost ruptured before they got it out. Then her and her fiance broke up. Then the next week she was back in the ER she had passed out and lost her vision. The Dr said it was from stress. And yesterday my MIL was taken by ambulance to the ER. She had gained 3 lbs. of fluid mostly in her feet. She was diagnosed with COPD. My husband is a disabled vet. He has had three back surgeries and two shoulder surgeries. He is in Chronic pain. They want us to drive four and a half hours to see specialist for our DD diabetes. He is not able to do this. This along with the bad economy, and nothing but bad news on the news and I feel completely depleted. I am having nightmares if I get to sleep. I slept one hour last night. I pray but it does not feel like God is listening to me. And the reason I ask if you feel under attack is because I have friends who have sick children and grandchildren. I am overwhelmed by it all. Link to comment
ANewMe Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 ((((LILLY)))).....I am speechless!! I wish I knew what to say or even more that I was closer to you in order to help some. Do you have a Pastor that you could speak with? Anyone that could step in help you carry the burden? I so wish I could do something....I know how it feels as far as feeling like God doesn't hear. I feel like that often, but I do feel like He hears my prayers for others and I WILL committ to pray for whatever need He can meet for you. I was once told that when we feel like we can no longer pray that is when we should ask our fellow brothers and sisters to do so on our behalf and I KNOW we have some serious Prayer Warriors here!! Love and Hugs!!! Please keep us posted..... Link to comment
Virginia Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 Lilly, you have had too much to bear in such a short time. Like A New Me said, let us help carry you to the throne of God. It can help just to know others care and are praying. Even the Holy Spirit is pleading on your behalf. We have had a very sick grandchild in the last week, 5 days in the ICU. He is home and so much better now. The hospital here was full almost to the point of opening up beds that are just for overflow. So much sickness among many here. Link to comment
MomM Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 (((((Lilly))))) I am so sorry that life is so darn difficult for you all right now. I'll be adding my prayers too. Even Mother Teresa had her "dark night of the soul". She often didn't feel God being with her, but she carried on the work he gave her and was his faithful servant. (((((Lilly))))) Link to comment
Annarchy Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 Do any of you feel like the Devil is attacking you and your family? <snip> I am overwhelmed by it all. (((((((Lilly))))))) May God give you relief and strength. Yes, sometimes it truly feels that way. Link to comment
kathy003 Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 Lily, You have had alot to deal with it sounds like, if you don't have a pastor to talk with, like Michelle suggested, do you have a good friend that you can talk to? i have learned through life talking with a friend can be very therapeutic, just to talk and get issues and feelings out can lift some of the weight off your shoulder's and help you make it through another day. good luck, I wish I could help Link to comment
Christy Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 Lilly, it sounds as if to much has been put on your plate. Sure hope there's someone there who'll listen to you and perhaps put an arm around your shoulders. Take care Christy Link to comment
CrabGrassAcres Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 Praying for you Lilly! Link to comment
themartianchick Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 Adding my prayers to the others, Lilly! You are never alone and God hears all prayers...even yours.It does sound as though this is a particularly rough patch for you and your family. But you are all still standing. Please seek out a pastor, a friend or even an agency to see if you can get some help for your family. Is it possible to get a home health aide? or a visiting nurse to assist with your granddaughter right now? If you belong to a church, then now is the time to involve them in this. I will be praying for your continued faith, endurance, and health in this difficult time. Link to comment
snapshotmiki Posted February 19, 2011 Share Posted February 19, 2011 I am praying for you also Lilly. You must have been given much grace to hold up under all this! Link to comment
Stephanie Posted February 21, 2011 Share Posted February 21, 2011 Hello Lilly, I am only now seeing this post and want to let you know that I too am praying. You are carrying an enormous load and it is only natural that you are growing weary. I'd like to encourage you (as others have) to build a support network of some sort. A local church can be a good resource but there are also other organizations available. Don't hesitate to ASK for help! Spiritually, yes, we can come under attack. We've been studying this very thing in our Strategies Bible Study. You are not alone, you have not been abandoned! Let us know how you are. Link to comment
Cat Posted February 21, 2011 Share Posted February 21, 2011 I've been praying for you, too, Lilly. There has to be some group in KY who helps Veterans. I'm sure you should be able to find somebody willing to drive you both to the specialist, even several times, by sharing rides or just being a blessing. Here's a starting place: http://veterans.ky.gov/ Also, contact your local Veteran groups... the American Legion, VFW, VA hospital, etc. I'm sure somebody would help, once they know the need. Make some noise, ask for help. Lord knows your husband stood up for our country... let somebody stand up for him. Link to comment
Momo Posted February 21, 2011 Share Posted February 21, 2011 Lilly..my thoughts are with you and your family. I understand alot of what you are going through. You must hang in there and try to keep yourself healthy and sane. Your family needs you more than ever right now. Link to comment
Becca_Anne Posted February 22, 2011 Share Posted February 22, 2011 ((((Lily))) I'm so sorry you've had so much to deal with recently! I hope that you can find some local support. Ask the Dr's if they can direct you to some support groups or resources for transportation. Link to comment
out_of_the_ordinary Posted February 22, 2011 Share Posted February 22, 2011 Lilly, I'll add your family to my prayers. Link to comment
Lilly Posted February 23, 2011 Author Share Posted February 23, 2011 Thank you all for you prayers. They mean so much to me right now. My oldest DD has improved and gone back to work. My MIL is doing a little better. My grandaughter is still having a rough time. She crawled onto my lap and buried her head into my shoulder and cried for about 30 minutes the other day. She said Nanny, I just want to be normal agin like before I had Diabetes. It just broke my heart. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. A snack is not a snack anymore. It is how many units will she need. The school did get 3 nurses to come in. We really want just one. We think she would cope better with just one. One day at a time. Again thank you for your prayers and support. Link to comment
sygnet Posted March 2, 2011 Share Posted March 2, 2011 Outside of praying for a lightening of your load, I can't add too much. What I CAN tell you is that it will get easier as time goes by. My own life has been hell on earth this last 3 months, but gradually, it IS easing. My DS is diabetic and has been since about 14. He's now 35 and coping well. Somehing I did for him was buy a very 'manly' looking journal, and asked him to write about his journey with the disease. I told him that after a year or so, maybe e could write a booklet for other newly diagnosed kids his own age so they could understand on their own level from a peer. Placing his anger, frustration (and sometimes triumphs) on paper not only helped him, but he did finally make up a small booklet that the diabetic counsellor actually did use for newly diagnosed teens. Finding out they were not alone, that what they were feeing was normal and ok, that many of the emotional ups and downs are a part of the diease - all helped. Maybe you can scrape enough cash to buy her a very pretty grown-up looking journal with pages that shouldn't be torn out, and her very own special pen to use in it. Perhaps mentioning that it *could* turn into a real project to help others may just be the spark that makes it a little easier for her to handle. Needless to say, this journal would be very private, and hers alone until she wants to share. Also, ask her to name her diabetes. Get her to give it a name for her to use to personalize it - make it a little special. (case in point, my own parkinson's is called "Sparky" in our family. Naming it makes it your own, is less obvious in public than using the word everyone else knows, and gives you a little 'special' something over outsiders) You may think these are silly points, but being in the space the whole family is in right now, it may just give her a venue for frustration and fear. Whatever happens, I wish you and yours well. Link to comment
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